Happy birthday, Jay. I was listening to this the whole day https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=69TaMdAclog

There was no one else around. I thought it would go away if I didn't make a sound. But it remained beside me. I tried to turn away. I found it turned with me, like a game I used to play. This wasn't any game though, so I moved to another place. Grief was already waiting with its tear stricken face. I asked what it wanted and why wouldn't it go away. Grief didn't answer, but I knew it was here to stay. So i let it sit beside me. I stopped asking it to go. Instead I opened up to it and put my emotions all on show. It never asked any questions. Or expected me to smile. It never questioned time, Or said it had been a while. Grief moved into my home. It slept with me in bed. It ate when I would eat. It heard everything I said. I thought when it was ready that maybe it would move on. It wouldn't really matter though, because you'd still be gone. I miss you every day xx Always in my heart xxx Mum

A Mother and Son I counted your fingers and then your toes, as I bent down i kissed your cute button nose. A mother's promise was made, as I held you tight, that as long as I breathed, you'd be alright. I'd accept your decisions whilst being your guide. I'd be the ears, when you were hurting inside. I'd be your voice when you could not speak. I'd be your strength, when you were weak. A Mother and her Son An unbreakable bond. A hidden magic, like a magicians wand. Brought together by blood. And Joined by the heart. A Mother and a Son, friends from the start. Love you Jay Miss you always x Till we meet again

Jay, “I missed you quietly today. So quietly that no one noticed……. I missed you as I climbed out of bed and as I got ready for work, when I waited at the lights on the way into work and as I heard the rain outside the window. I missed you as I ate my lunch and as I kicked off my shoes when I got home; I missed you quietly as I switched off the lights and climbed into bed for the night. I missed you without tears or noise or fanfare. But oh how I felt it…….. I felt it in the morning, at lunchtime, in the evening and at night. I felt it as I woke, as I waited, as I worked. I felt it at home, on the road, in the light, in the dark, I felt it in the rain. I felt it in every one of those moments, each one sitting heavier and heavier as the weight of my loss kept growing and growing. Yes, I missed you so quietly today. But oh how I felt it………so loudly “🌈💙🌈💙 Mum

Best of you xx There are things I needed to tell you that I never got the chance to. Things you deserved to hear.... I’m sorry. I’m sorry for not doing more. If it was possible to bear your pain, I would have. Even when distant, my world was better because you were in it. I was always proud of you. My love for you is constant, unconditional, eternal. There are pieces of you I’m discovering in me. Little gifts you unknowingly left behind. Even your absence is filled with moments worth revisiting. Maybe instead of learning how to live without you, I’ll just bring the best of you with me. Maybe we're not meant to move on, we're meant to move with. I miss you every day xx Mam

Jason I can't believe you've gone. The pain I feel at the moment is a testament to just how big of a place you held in my heart. Rest easy, my brother, I'll always love and remember you.

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I am I and you are you, whatever we were to each other that we still are. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? Life means all that it ever meant, it is the same as it ever was.