Happy birthday, Jay. I was listening to this the whole day https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=69TaMdAclog

There was no one else around. I thought it would go away if I didn't make a sound. But it remained beside me. I tried to turn away. I found it turned with me, like a game I used to play. This wasn't any game though, so I moved to another place. Grief was already waiting with its tear stricken face. I asked what it wanted and why wouldn't it go away. Grief didn't answer, but I knew it was here to stay. So i let it sit beside me. I stopped asking it to go. Instead I opened up to it and put my emotions all on show. It never asked any questions. Or expected me to smile. It never questioned time, Or said it had been a while. Grief moved into my home. It slept with me in bed. It ate when I would eat. It heard everything I said. I thought when it was ready that maybe it would move on. It wouldn't really matter though, because you'd still be gone. I miss you every day xx Always in my heart xxx Mum

A Mother and Son I counted your fingers and then your toes, as I bent down i kissed your cute button nose. A mother's promise was made, as I held you tight, that as long as I breathed, you'd be alright. I'd accept your decisions whilst being your guide. I'd be the ears, when you were hurting inside. I'd be your voice when you could not speak. I'd be your strength, when you were weak. A Mother and her Son An unbreakable bond. A hidden magic, like a magicians wand. Brought together by blood. And Joined by the heart. A Mother and a Son, friends from the start. Love you Jay Miss you always x Till we meet again